Life...

My mom had another stroke last night.



Right under my nose.



As frightened as I was, I was also comfortable being there. Helping her and taking charge. A very strange feeling.



In the end, the episode was caught early and no further damage was done. Her life will resume in a couple of days and life will go on.



But as I watched her sleep in her hospital bed, I realized that my life has been put on hold many times over the past few years in order to help others. Things that seemed very important to me but that were put to rest until, well, who knows. A deliberate choice I must admit but I am finally starting to feel the repercussions of those choices.



It might seems selfish to certain people but at this time, it seems to me that MY life should come first. So call me a bad daughter but as my mother will lay in her hospital bed over the weekend, I will be off on a Canyoning trip and drinking some beer.



Wish me luck !!

Overworked...

I worked 38 hours in overtime this week.





I am feeling quite exhausted.





But I still took time to finally buy the 2 things that would make me totally assume my 30's :






Eye glasses and an ironing board.





My mom is so proud.





Meet the new me :

How about you : what made you finally assume your age ?

I can...

I can change an acceleration belt. By myself.

I can go through serious illness.

I can leave a violent and abusive relationship.

I can go through divorce.

I can put myself through school while working full time.

I can stop smoking.

I can battle addiction.

I can travel by myself.

I can speak 3 languages.

I can drink 25 vodka shots and not be sick.

I can take care of somebody other than myself.

I can bounce back after a big fall.



But I cannot, even to save my life, manage to pick wall colors for my new apartment. I just can't.



I need help.

Life...

I finally found an apartment !! Moving date : September 1st... Much shopping to do until then !



I also just signed my lease. And it's on a Post-it. And totally legal. I had it laminated ; that one I'll want to keep !

The apartment is on top of a hair salon and while I was signing the lease outside of the building, an employee came out an offered me discounts for the shop (note to self : your hair do look that bad). That's when I noticed the sign on the door : "Your hair is as flat as your ex in bed ? Book an appointment now" I already know I'll have a blast in that building.

Speaking of ex... My mom was helping me repack some boxes when she sudently screamed, turned beet red and left the room while telling me to do the job myself. Curious, I looked into the box she was working on. Yep, she found the Flashlight. Oups... !

Feeling great...

“I never understood Frost’s analogy about there being 2 roads in life to choose from. Everyone I know is stucked at a 4-way intersection and, given the choice, I think they would all be taking u-turns.” – Anonymous








That's how I feel this week. How about you ??

A blast from the past...

I saw an ex today.

Somebody I loved very much.

We lost touch 8 years ago.

Back then, he was a wealthy PH.D student.

He's now a meth addict and lives on the street.



How am I suppose to react to this ? Part of me wants to help ; the other part wants to run as fast as I can.



I am at a lost for words...

Attention deficit...

I will be moving again on August 1st to a more permanent home. I have been doing some camping for the last couple of weeks and will finally have my own place to stay. A real appartment. I haven't had one for years and I am really excited about it. And more excitingly, I'll be starting from scrach. You heard me right : brand new everything. Well, euh, except for the clothes and the old dog. Feeling jealous yet ? Even the carrot peeler will be new... Oh ! and the bath towels ? New too !! And no old smelly couch. Everything will be brand new. I know ; I get way too excited everytime I think about it...



But that brings me to my point.

I seem to have the attention spam of a 5 years old when it comes to sticking to the list and buying only essentials for the appartment. Because, well, I am on a budget. I bought today the last missing object for the mini bar. Mind you, I still haven't bought the kitchenware...

See what I mean ?

I need help. Badly.

Any suggestions on what essentials I should get ? What's the one thing in your house you couldn't live without ??

Because I really am that self obsessed...

I just had to post it : I just received an other cool picture of my canyoning this past Saturday...

It was really as cool as it look.

Have a great weekend everybody !

Bitting my cheeks...

Discussion over diner last night :





Mom : "this tastes like pickles"


Me : "Yes, it's called aneth"


Mom, looking puzzled at tiny piece of herb : "Of all things, I never expected dried pickles to look like this"






Yep, I had to bite my cheeks really hard for that one.



Good thing I still see those conversations as one the the perks of taking care of her...

Weekend nicknack...

Canyoning.





My legs are killing me. And I'm definitely doing it again in August !!





But I am getting a shorter wetsuit and way lighter boots. Definitely.




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In other news





It was decided, over some green punch and around a herd of gay guys, that my new personal ad should read as this : " early 30's trumpet player, short on legs but flexible and bestial, looking for non hairy guy. "





That was some strong green punch.





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I am the coolest aunt ever ! I left the house thinking I would buy a dress and a skateboard for my niece and nephew to celebrate the end of the school year.

I came back with a hamster.



Please meet Leopold Le Grimpeur. Yes, the 2 name thing did brake up a very early morning fight.

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How about you ? How was your weekend ??