The Friday Tradition...

I haven't done it in a long, long time so I'll give it a shot...

Here we go:

I am...

- Still slowly losing weight



I want...

- A familly. One day.


I have...

- A great support system.

I hate...

- That there's absolutely no ways of getting a Starbucks Coffee around here.

I fear...

- That I might never have that familly that I want so badly.



I search...

- For that perfect pair of stockings that'll fit perfectly.

I wonder...

- If I'll ever be dept free.

I never...

- Leave the house without nail polish on my toes.



I rarely...

- Say what's really on my mind.



I cry...

- When I'm pissed off or really stressed



I am not always...

- The most politically correct person



I'm confused...

- About my need for gadgets. Really.

I miss...

- Starbucks. Do I need to say more ?

I need...

- To shave my legs more often...



I should...

- Start believing in myself more.

Confession...

My teaching contract ended a couple of weeks ago and while waiting fo the next one to start, I've been enjoying some quiet time at home. A bit too much...



I have a confession to make. And a huge one...



I've been playing a housewife since the end of the contract, and well, I'm loving it. Cleaning the house, preparing lunches, making diner and taking care of my man. Oh ! And the laundry ! I've apparently become a laundry fairy and can't seem to get enough of the stuff !! Yes, Bob likes to make fun of me about it.



The funiest thing is: I used to be the most independant and messiest person ever ! And I now seem to take proud of the cleanliness of my house and in making sure everything is in order before my man comes back home. Weird.



I think the lack of Starbucks is finally getting to me...

Back...

I know, I know... I kinda dispeared from the face of the earth.





This might be the reason:

Don't get the wrong idea though: it is not an engagement ring. There won't be any wedding planning going on. But it is a ring. On that important finger. And I can't seem to be able to look away from it. Yes, you are allowed to call me dorky.

That ring also helps me put things in perspectives, at moment where I would rather just abandon ship and go far, far away. No, things are not always perfect. I don't think there is such a thing as a perfect relationship anyway. But then I look at that ring and remind myself that, even though it doesn't always look like it, that the person who gaved me that ring loves me. Really. It is up to me to see past the angriness or the sadness and reming myself of that.

Not always easy though...

About that...

It is freaking - 39 C (or -38.9 F) outside.

 

Holly crap...

Hum...

We just did our first major purchase as a couple: an upright freezer.

 

Most couples would either buy a couch or a bed frame as a first purchase.

 

We bought a freezer big enough to fit a body.

 

Hum...

Meet William !

Please meet my new nephew: William !!

 

Only a couple of minutes old and he's already photogenic...

 

 

What I didn't blog about...

What I didn't blog about...

A lot of things, I know. I've been totally swomped with the new job and the new house, which left me little to no time to blog, even to update my familly and friends...

 

- I am loving the new job, even more than I expected. I am thrilled ! So thrilled that I have decided to go back to school, part time, and get a teaching certificate...

 

- Moka is doing so much better at the new place. She's even developping a new personnality ! And is totally having a love affair with Bob... She is now jealous of me. Following him everywhere, crying when he's out of reach, and totally puring and drooling when he's scratching her belly. Totally hilarious !

 

- I've been suffering from a chalk induced cold for the past month. And I said I wanted to be a teacher ?

 

- I've lost almost 40 pounds since last winter. Yay ! In order to save some money (well, a lot actually...) I've proceeded to alter my old clothes. My sewing machine is getting some good milleage ! I've taken 9 inches from an old shirt... Yay me ! 40 more pounds to go...

 

- I've put in action the saying: when in a relationship, one must choose it's battles wisely. Great. So he couldn't care less about the xmas tree and would rather take his eyeballs out with a fork rather than helping putting it together ? Fine ! Than he"s definitely not allowed to complain and bitch about it !! 

 

- We broke something over the holidays. The ones that know me personnaly won't be surprised at all it happened...

 

 

One of the many reasons I haven't been blogging lately is that Bob doesn't like the idea of a blog. I can understand his reasons and totally respect his opinion. The thing is; since we live together and work together, that leaves me with not much to blog about... 

 

Time for a change...

There were a lot of changes lately in JATP’s world. And it is all because of a man. I know. So predictable…








Well, in the last 2 weeks, I’ve changed jobs and moved in with a great guy. Yep, I’ve quit the corporate world, the 9 to 5 gig, the office with no window (but with a door!) and traded all my comfort for the oh! so unpredictable world of a full time musician with a teaching gig. Yeah!!! I rock! It is still a contract. As was my other job. But I now get drug insurance. Which is a big bonus for me. I now get to justify my student loans payments. And I get to wake up with my great guy beside me every day. Yes, there are many other benefits but whatever.








I know the move come in quick. Without that new job, which happens to be in the same city as his work, we wouldn’t have moved in together so quickly. But we make a good team. We work well together. We know each other’s body language so well, it is freaky sometimes. We also have realistic expectations. Nobody’s perfect. But we’re also both willing to discuss a problem before it escalades. And the fact that there were absolutely no fights during the move, none whatsoever, should be a good indication on how things are going to be… ;)








Bonus points for me; the new city happens to be right in the middle of my two favorite worlds. Two and a half hour each ways. I’ll get to see my favorite people more often!! Well, except for you Nico. And let’s just say I’m not too kin on the idea of you moving to Siberia. The vodka might be cheap but it is definitely way too far. There. I said it.








The new place has a backyard for Moka. And a finished basement (with plenty of sofa-beds for our guests…ehem…) And it also comes with a great guy… Yes, you are allowed to call me geeky. It is also in the middle of nowhere. **gasp** Not exaggerating. Really. The nearest Starbucks is 30 miles away. I’ve started a 12 steps withdrawal program.








Here are pictures of my old and new surroundings…






Old life:







New life:

Noticed the difference?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

Here we go again.



And it's still October.



20-27 cm of snow is expected.



I now have a vision of trick or treaters going around in snow shoes...

Batteries included...

I've had babies on my mind a lot lately. I'm not saying I'd want one right now. But the clock is definitely on the wall and the batteries are at hands reach. I'm at a stage in my life right now where children are not something I might consider: it is something that I want. Badly. But the thing is, I'm kind of screwed in that department. See, I have only 1 ovary, and a very lazy one that is, PCOS, endometriosis, a looped uterus and pelvic adhesions. Screwed I said. Big time. Let's just say I've wasted a lot of money on birth control for nothing. I won't get pregnant on a drunken night...



The fact that I still haven't come to term with my fertility problems seems to affect my relationships with men. Yes, I do bring many other insecurities in a relationship. My weight is a big issue with me. But it is relatively easily fixable. But why would a man want to have a future with me knowing that creating a family will be a very long and costly road ? That pretty and skinny girl on the corner just seems like an easier ride...